It's over...that is the good news. We arrived to find a new Prosecuting Attorney. One unknown by my Attorney and one not familiar with my case. "He" was there with his female friend, someone he has known a long time. They sat in the front row, sneaking looks at me and laughing.
The court gave him 2 opportunities to drop the charges and he refused. So on the advice of my Attorney, I pled "no contest". We could have gone ahead and had the bench trial, but that is a crap shoot with an uncertain outcome. The way everything has been going his way, I made the decision to take the plea, knowing the outcome would be probation and a fine. I meet with the Probation Officer the first week in September for an Interview. Then the first week in October, I will go back to court and be sentenced, in essence be told how long my probation will last, what my fine will be and oh yeah....I have to attend Anger Management Classes, punishment for an act I did NOT committ. Well at least I don't have to wear an orange vest and pick up garbage on the streets.
I am sad and depressed. My Attorney is livid! She told me to roll up my sleeves, because we are going to have the ugliest divorce TRIAL...yes I said trial...that has yet to be seen. She called his Attorney yesterday and told him if her client (me) has to take a plea, he better be ready for an ugly divorce. So she is going after everything she can get. I am finished being nice. I am totally with her on this. If I just had the energy to get angry, it would help. I just feel helpless, depressed and sad. When I saw him in court today, I noticed he too has lost weight, he looks tired and worn out. When I said this to my friend and my Attorney, they were amazed that I could feel any empathy for him. I don't love him, I am not in love with him...but he is still a human being, a person. Yes, he has hurt me, and continues to hurt me and perhaps I sound ridiculous for feeling some sorrow for him..but hate will not change anything. I need some anger to get me going. But I don't even have that. Believe me, my family has enough and then some. My Brother wants to come out here and....well I don't exactly know what he wants to do..but something that would most likely put him in jail.
So there ya have it.
Love to all,
Sueann and "us"
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
4 comments:
Anger Management Class, huh?
You will have to believe me, when I tell you exactly how I would deal with that.
Hey, us. I would look at any class as an opportunity to meet new people, maybe even find a good, true, and loyal friend. Since God is in charge, the possibilities are endless.
Now, as for the fine, I'd say "Well, they FKd me over this time." (Excuse me!)
Love to us, from US...
Glad you have a good atty that seems to be a fighter for you dear one. So very sorry that you have to be put through all this crap.
((((all of you))))
I am so profoundly upset and sad for you that I find it hard to know how to comment.
I guess all I can do is pick up the tools Alcoholics Anonymous and Al-Anon have taught me, use them, and pass them on.
I pray for you, of course. I will pray for him. And then I will ask God to give you the courage and the power you need to protect and take care of yourself. I will pray for your attorney. THEN I WILL PLACE THE WHOLE THING IN GOD'S HANDS - GOD'S WILL BE DONE!
PG
You can have compassion for someone as a human being and still be REALLY ANGRY at their behavior and hold them accountable for their actions. I hope you get some energy going and maybe...some...appropriate anger. ((((((((Safe hugs))))))))
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