"We Talked"

We talked, with the man who lives here. We had no choice, he brought it up. So now, each knows where the other stands. I want a divorce and he does not. He is going to try to get re-mortgage on the house and keep it. Our so hoped for plan is not even an opition....him leaving, moving out, we stay here, continue to pay the house payment, but putting it up for sale. So plan B. We will divide the furshings, and well everything. I begin packing on Thursday. I will store my furniture here and just take what I need to feel safe and comfortable. It will be difficult with him here..but we will keep in our minds, that we will be free of this loveless, non-emotional, no cummnication, no empathy, no real emotions broken marriage. We will leave for Texas, when all is settled. We must get a consult with an Attorney to learn how to handle the divorce.

We have made the decision to move back to the Dallas/Ft. Worth area instead of moving down to Houston. We love our cousin, like a Sister, but she can be controlling. We don't need that. Our best friend and her husband and son live there and we have been invitied to stay there until we can find a place. My friend is so excited that I will be moving back.

We do feel badly for the man, but we must do what will make "us" happy for once in our life. We will remain strong, we will not allow his sorrow cause us to feel guilty. We will be kind to him. We have already told him we never meant to hurt him. But that we just not happy in the marriage.....but alas, he does not understand.

Emma Grace + will say a prayer:

Heavenly Father, look down on the man who lives here and grant him peace of mind, strenghth to over come his sadness and knowledge to understand that we must leave. Oh and acceptance of the parting. We ask this in the name of your son, Jesus.
Amen +

nite from "most of us....the older of us)

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".