"A Fearful Haunting?"

Trigger Alert!!!!!!

Last night, I got into bed, lay down, got comfy and closed my eyes. Suddenly, I was consumed with fear, massive fear. I don't even know that I can explain what happened next...but I need to try.

My body went rigid, and I felt someone was in the room, approaching me. I don't remember ever being so terrified, so completely vulnerable! The only way I can describe what happened next is by saying I felt I was being molested, raped, hurt. I don't mean in the 'literal' sense of these words. I remember wanting to scream, but I could not. I could not move! This feeling lasted for only a few minutes, but it was so terrifying! When at last, this feeling went away, I sat straight up in my bed and I was shaking. I had to get out of my bedroom. As soon as I felt I could stand, I went to the living room. I sat on the couch, still feeling afraid and shaken. I tried sorting out what had happened, but it became fuzzy, out of my reach, I started questioning myself if it had really happened. I read for awhile, then hesitantly returned to my bed. I lay there for a long time, tense, afraid it may happen again. Sometime, there after, I fell asleep. Upon awakening this morning, I immediately remembered what had happened the night before. But I felt nothing, no fear....just nothing.

The remainder of the day, I was fine, except for the same nagging painful headache, which has become an every day cross to bare. So what happened to me? Was this a physical memory of the incest? Or being raped by my first husband? I have no idea, no explanation and this has never happened to me before....possibly an alter has experienced it, perhaps it was an alter that suffered horribly last night...I just don't know. The fact that I did not feel emotionally attached to the incident this morning, makes me think it happened to an alter.

Sueann~

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".