"Sorrow"

Everyone is in major shut down...so, I Susannah, will write. It's with much sorrow that I tell you MElinda - grades 1 through 6, has taken ill. Her headaches are causing horrific pain and preventing any sleep. She feels she must soon "speak" at "T" and tell of the memories she has held and painted black for so long. She understands keeping them inside and "secret" is not good for any of "us". Although this realization is a good thing for our Journey to heal, she is terrified....won't someone help her......please....... Crying, crying all the time, seeing those terrible things taht happen....why why why to me....then to us....then awful smells, hands are notmine whos.....pain blank numb...not real....cant be....should be dead then.....dont want to tell....not posed to tell...ever.....head hurt so bad...tummy hurt too.....dont make me go out....they will look and stare me..............................................

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".