Sunday, May 10, 2009

"Mother's Day Post"

All day, I have been remembering time spent with my Mother. There is not much I can remember from childhood. We had no family vacations. I so want this post to be kind and a tribute to the good there is in my Mother. So here goes.....

My Mother, smiles and her entire being changes, it becomes radiant. My Mother is beautiful. She still gets compliments from men on how wonderful she looks. My Mother is strong. She has survived a bitter and fearful divorce, the loss of her parents within a year of one another and the loss of her eldest son. My Mother is witty and funny. My Mother is loyal to her family and her friends. My Mother is a Christian and goes to Mass always. My Mother has taught me survival, in her own way.

OK have to stop...too much talking in my head.

Happy Mother's Day to all of you.....and to you, as well, Steve....**grin**.

Rainbow

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

8 comments:

Mike Golch said...

I hope that you had a good day today.{{{hugs}}}

Patricia Singleton said...

Rainbow, I used to do all of my talking from my head too. That was when I was stuffing feelings in my body rather than dealing with them. I slowly, over many years, learned to feel and talk from my heart. Sometimes I still get scared and talk from just my head but not as often. Thanks for your comment on my blog today.

Just Be Real said...

Rainbow, thank you so much for writing this lovely tribute about your mother, as difficult as it was!!!

Blessings dear one!!

Anonymous said...

i hope you're all ok from yesterday~

father's day was always hard for me. it brought up more of my anger, more of my sadness and grief, than other days. focusing on the good parts of him wasn't something i could do without the rest of me getting upset.

Rainbow said...

Mike - thank you...it was an ok day.
Patricia - the talking in my head are my alters...that was probably one of the most difficult posts to write for us. Mother was extremely abusive when we were young..and still is, but now emotionally.

JBR - very difficult to write..yes...hugs to you

MM - we hv a wonderful step-father..so makes it easier...but miss my Brother on father's day...hugs

Anonymous said...

I haven't read enough of your blog, but frankly, I have nothing good to say about my mother.

But I wanted to thank you for something you wrote at mm's blog. You said you were trying to stop the abuse by being perfect.

The abuse I received was emotional, verbal, and physical. But it never did occur to me that the perfectionism came from the desire to stop the abuse. Years in therapy and nobody told me that.

Thanks!

Anonymous said...

i'm so glad you have a good step-father. how rare are those! :) i'm glad there are things in your life that help you deal with your mother.

i am so sorry that you lost your brother. you've dealt with so much pain and loss.

oh and i'm so glad lorena pointed out what you said about perfection. i had missed the point she saw, that in trying to be perfect you were trying to stop the abuse. i think my perfectionism was similar, that i tried to be perfect to earn love and prevent being abused like my brother was. isn't it sad the things we think we can do as children to impact things so far out of our control. to protect ourselves, and our siblings. how strong you were. and are~

it's inspiring to read your words as you work to grieve your losses and take care of all of you. thank you for sharing~

hugs back!

Barbra said...

It is very brave of you to have written this post for Mothersday!
Blessings, Barbra