"Just Like Old Times"

My Cousin just left, on her way back to Texas. I am happy to say, no make that, over joyed to say we had a great time together! We grew up together and are more like Sisters than cousins. It was so good to see her! I cried like a baby this morning, as she drove away. We did make plans for me to fly down to Texas in June for a visit.

I actually went shopping!!! AND bought some clothes. My cousin bought me some jewelry to go with my new clothes. I won't say that I did not have some "moments" while shopping, cause I did. At one point, we had to leave a store quickly, cause I just could not breathe! I have told my cousin about my "condition", well as much as I understand about it...I am still learning. So she understood, as much as she can, and we left the store right away. An incident happened that scared some of the "little ones". A kid was bouncing this ball in the store, and the ball hit me on the back. The "switching" was immediate! The young ones of "us" became afraid and were fearful the kid would continue to hit "us"....so out the door we flew. "They" were quite shaken and "we" and my cousin found a place to grab some coffee and just sit for awhile. My cousin told me she could actually see the change and fear in me. That validation from her, was truly a blessing, a gift to all of "us".

I was shocked to see all the new styles that are out. It was like traveling back in time. Peace sign T-shirts, jewelry, man it was like I feel all the time, young, in my 20's and I loved it. Why can't every day be like this? To feel happy again, was so wonderful! I had forgotten what happiness felt like.

So back to "our" real world now. We are leaving early Thursday morning to visit Mother. She has not been well. In fact she was taken to the hospital, by ambulance on Saturday morning. Her blood pressure was very high and her breathing was difficult. She was there for a few hours, then released. She had a reaction to some new medication her physician had given her. We had promised her months ago, that we would be there to help with her Spring Cleaning. So we feel we must go. Yes, we are fearful of how things will go, but a promise is a promise.

I feel sad, at the moment. I dread goodbyes. I miss my cousin so much already! She brought joy and laughter into my life, even for just a few days. I love her all the more for that.

Peace!
Susannah with some help from the "others"

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".