"Father's Day Coming Up"

this Sunday is Father's Day. Happy Father's Day to all of my friends!

the man that lives here will be visiting his son and the DIL and grandson on Sunday. I will not be joining him. It is sad. The DIL has caused much anger and hurt and we have not heard from any of them. so...we are keeping our boundaries in place and we are not going over there.
Our Dad lives in another state, along with the rest of our immediate family, so we will not be seeing him either.
We remember Father's Day during our childhood. We were forced to go and visit "The Dad", by Mother. The spell of Old Spice makes us want to puke. ew.........

Talked to Mother today. She seems not to hear anything we have tried to tell her......today she again said kids need their asses slapped.....we sighed.....she asked "what?".....we said...we asked you to please not say that....we do not believe in hurting children in any way. Again, her reply, well that is why kids are so rotten these days. ummm...these days? she always told us we were rotten...so guess kids from all eras are just plain rotten and should be beaten!

our little brother called us today. after talking for awhile, he asked if he could ask me some questions.....we said well sure...he said well it's about your childhood....see this Brother is our half brother but we never call him that or think of him in that way...we are just so happy he did not have to endure having "the Dad" for a father. well, he said he knew some of what we went through with "the Dad" and he wanted to know why my deceased Brother did not beat "the Dad" after he became older. well we said...he did not remember the abuse either...and in fact he told us when we came out of the nut house...that if he had been sexually abused he did NOT want to know about it. Our little brother was a little stunned to hear that....but that is what he told me. We love our little bother...he was born when we were sixteen and we took care of him, because Mother was ill after his birth. so we have remained close. our Mother never hit him...never. he asked us why, do you suppose she 'changed'.....we said...she did so because our Dad would never put up with her beating any child. our Brother said it is hard for him to imagine our Mother ever being like that. we found ourselves explaining how frustrated she was, young with 3 small children...and that she took that frustration out on us. then I quickly added...that does not make what she did to us okay...and he said yes he understood that. why are we talking about this?

nite
rainbow~~

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".