So the man that lives here...his sister is a psychologist. She just called and I answered the phone. We talk about this and that...then I ask her if she has heard from the DIL...she says no. I tell her, well we are not speaking, due to some hateful Emails she wrote to me 2 weeks ago. I tell her a little of what the DIL said and she replies with "Well we have all had brutal childhoods, I have just decided to put it in the the past where it belongs and live a happier life." then...."You know, some people just do not understand depression, because SOME do people push themselves to go out and do things and find they are much happier." I saw RED! So I told her it was not just depression, but DID and Panic/Anxiety Disorder and Agoraphobia. She again minimized my illness, by saying, sometimes it is just better to leave it all in the past. This, coming from a Psychologist????????????? First of all...how dare her 'assume' she knows anything about my childhood traumas, and secondly suggest, not once, but twice, that I need to just let it all go, and go on with my life!!!! Before giving the phone to the man who lives here, I told her, well I have boundaries and if people can not accept me for who I am, then I do not need those people in my life.....then said here's your Brother. He went out on the porch to talk to her, so have no idea what was said between them....and honestly I don't care! I so want out of this marriage, this family and away from all of them. I think the whole lot of them are hiding their heads in the sand. They all have some pretty severe issues, they have not dealt with at all! That is their business, but do not tell me to just let the atrocities put upon me, go! I've totally had it with all of them. I am so angry and hurt and feel so unimportant to any of them. I may just have to jump start my "plan" and just pack my stuff and leave! I was trying very hard to pay off bills and then attempt to sell the house and not leave all of that debt on his shoulders. But now, I just don't think I can do this any longer. Staying here does not seem to be an option for me anymore. Where will I go? I have some choices. I will discuss these with Doc on Monday.
See US I can rant without one single cuss word.....grin.........
Sueann
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
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"See US I can rant without one single cuss word.....grin........."
Well, SueAnn.....Fk it all, I CAN'T!
-grin!
US
that is terrible that a "psychologist" would say that to you. i don't know where she got her training, but it doesn't sound like she was trained well. plus how insensitive!
i'm sorry that happened. again you stood up for yourself, that's great! but i'm sorry you keep having to. how exhausting.
i wish you well as you consider what you want to do next. i think it's great you have options, and that you don't feel trapped in your situation. i hope therapy goes well today.
I am sorry for you about the reaction from your sister in law.
I hope your "plan" will work out and maybe give a little peace to you.
Safe hugs and blessings,
Barbra
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