"No Rant...We Promise"

Saw our Doc today. We are more calm, not so angry, seeing things more clearly now.

We know it is not anyone's fault, the lay off happened. We never meant to sound as if we were blaming anyone. Change, especially sudden change, causes much chaos inside. We came to understand in "T" today, that our anger is really about no private time, no alone time. When we sit at this computer to write, the man who lives here, is usually upstairs asleep. We feel it is safe then, for "us" to put our feelings here, to allow everyone to say what they wish to be said. We push the wall down, come out and we write and it all flows so freely. Tonight, we are writing, while the man is in the other room watching TV. It's sort of like a "test". Can we let our guard down? Can we concentrate? Do we feel safe? ummmmm nope....so we will be back later to write......sorry, we tried...

"us"

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".