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It's over...that is the good news.
We arrived to find a new Prosecuting Attorney. One unknown by my Attorney and one not familiar with my case. "He" was there with his female friend, someone he has known a long time. They sat in the front row, sneaking looks at me and laughing.
The court gave him 2 opportunities to drop the charges and he refused. So on the advice of my Attorney, I pled "no contest". We could have gone ahead and had the bench trial, but that is a crap shoot with an uncertain outcome. The way everything has been going his way, I made the decision to take the plea, knowing the outcome would be probation and a fine. I meet with the Probation Officer the first week in September for an Interview. Then the first week in October, I will go back to court and be sentenced, in essence be told how long my probation will last, what my fine will be and oh yeah....I have to attend Anger Management Classes, punishment for an act I did NOT committ. Well at least I don't have to wear an orange vest and pick up garbage on the streets.
I am sad and depressed. My Attorney is livid! She told me to roll up my sleeves, because we are going to have the ugliest divorce TRIAL...yes I said trial...that has yet to be seen. She called his Attorney yesterday and told him if her client (me) has to take a plea, he better be ready for an ugly divorce. So she is going after everything she can get. I am finished being nice. I am totally with her on this. If I just had the energy to get angry, it would help. I just feel helpless, depressed and sad. When I saw him in court today, I noticed he too has lost weight, he looks tired and worn out. When I said this to my friend and my Attorney, they were amazed that I could feel any empathy for him. I don't love him, I am not in love with him...but he is still a human being, a person. Yes, he has hurt me, and continues to hurt me and perhaps I sound ridiculous for feeling some sorrow for him..but hate will not change anything. I need some anger to get me going. But I don't even have that. Believe me, my family has enough and then some. My Brother wants to come out here and....well I don't exactly know what he wants to do..but something that would most likely put him in jail.
So there ya have it.
Love to all,
Sueann and "us"
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
Tomorrow we see our
Attorney, to prepare for the Criminal Trial on Friday.
Our Attorney called us today. She told us she has talked with opposing Counsel and has informed him that if "he" goes forth with the accusations, and I am either forced to go to trial, or forced to take a plea of "no contest", he had better be prepared for a very ugly divorce. Wow..we were impressed! Finally we feel someone is on our side and fighting for us. We are, naturally, having a lot of anxiety about appearing in court and having to testify. But the truth will win out...right????? We in no way harmed "him". "He" told our friend, whom we are staying with, that "he" loves Sueann and wants her back. HA!!!! Fat chance!
Well, thank you all again for your support and love and prayers. Hopefully, all will go well on Friday and we can get back to writing on a regular basis and visiting all of your blogs and getting caught up on your lives.
"us"
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
Today was a day of revelations!
The friend, the one we trusted so easily and so deeply...is a FAKE! Yes, he used us to feed his already over-sized ego. What a freakin loser. So now we are filled with anger and have no where to direct it! So we walk....several walks a day. It helps, but we would just love to speak to him one more time and tell him exactly how we feel about his deceit. Do we have a sign on our person (s) that reads....all losers, liars and creeps follow us? Even though the anger is great, the sadness and the feeling of being "taken" once again remains. Life sometimes, just sucks, and there is nothing you can do about it. Well everyone would like to say a few choice words to this FAKE PERSON:
rainbow - well, you r mean an i dont like u anymire
Susannah - FREAK! What a waste of time being on the phone with you all hours of the day and night....call us again...and you will get an ear full from me!
Emma Grace+ May God have mercy on your deceitful soul and may you out run Susannah...Amen
MElinda - grades 1 thru 6 - i hv never liked or trusted men
Sueann - I am hurt and ashamed that I once again was fooled by someone I thought was trustworthy.
eight - faker
anger - don't think should say what thinking.... %$#@&%$
no one else has anything to say..............................
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
I miss my friend. I miss the laughter and joy he brought to my life. I miss the phone calls. He is gone, because of a misunderstanding. I have tried to resolve the situation, but he will not return my calls or Emails. Now I must find a way to "be" without him. The emptiness inside is more than painful, it is unbearable. He was a good friend. We formed a bond almost immediately. It takes so much for us to give our trust. We gave it to him, freely and without hesitation because both he and us felt a closeness, as if we had known each other all of our lives. So how does such a strong friendship just end so swiftly? This was not a romantic relationship....it was, well I thought it was, one of the best friendships I have ever experienced. As I said, I have tried to reach him, but I have given up. It seems everything I truly value in this life, is taken from me. No, I am not feeling sorry for us, but when does it stop? I don't know that I can take much more heart break.
My Criminal Trial is on Friday. I am nervous and scared. My Attorney seems to think I should take a plea of No Contest...which I do not understand why I should do that. Yes, it would all be over, I would not need to spend anymore money (which I don't have) going back and forth to court. But at the pre-trial, the Prosecuting Attorney and my Attorney both agreed, the charges were ridiculous and the police report was laughable. So why then, do I have to plead No Contest? I know that is not an admission of guilt..but damn it..I did not harm that man in any way! Oh and he is a real good actor in Court....that too is laughable. He is Mr. it'sallherfault in front of the Judge, but in the hall outside the Court Room, he is Mr. nice and passive....what a creep he is! What a FAKE! I dislike him intensely!!!!!
The family I am living with...well my friend was supposed to call him today to make arrangements to pick up Scarlett and more of my clothing, but she fell in the bathroom, injuring her arm and we were at the ER all day today. So I don't know if she will feel up to going over there. I pray she does, I miss my dog so much! I want to take her down by the river to the park and just hold her and love on her and play with her.
All for tonight. Again thanks to all of you for your support, prayers and love...you have no idea what that all means to us. We love you!
Sueann and "us"
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
Today, we are feeling at odds with everything. Nothing seems to fit. We have lost a very loved and good friend, because of circumstances beyond anyone's control, and this has put us into a sad and lonely place. Back to not sleeping or eating, we feel lost and empty inside. Nothing to fill that loss, that deep void. Have been walking several times a day, helps to think things through. But this situation, this loss, will not be eased by walking.
We will be seeing Scarlett, hopefully, on Sunday. We also need our clothes from the upstairs closet. My friend will go and get both for us. Scarlett will have to return to "him", of course, but only until the divorce is final...then she will be returned to me, where she belongs. We are so angry that "he" has kept her from us!
We long to have all of this behind us. We are still in a state of disbelief that "we" were arrested for, of all things, abusing someone. It is almost funny, when we think on it. We, who have never hurt another soul, who are actual survivors of physical abuse, now have a criminal record! Is this some kind of cosmic joke? We feel we have embarrassed our family, though much support is coming daily from all of them.
Lastly, we miss Doc! We hope that he still reads our posts, and that he knows we would be seeing him, if we had health insurance.
Thank you to everyone for your love, prayers and support. Without them, well...we would feel so much more alone. We love all of you!
Sueann for all of "Us"
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
we are doing pretty well....considering all that is going on. our trial date is August 21st. looks like we may be pleading "no contest" just to get it over with and not have to pay out additional monies to the Attorney. but actually, at pre-trial, the Prosecuting Attorney agreed with my Attorney, that this was bullshit and no charges should have ever been brought against me...so why the plea...we will ask our Attorney why.
on this past Friday at the PPO and Ex-Parte hearing...the PPO was dropped...and the Ex-Parte was modified, showing the house and all bills regarding the house go to him....which I could care less about the house. we had to agree, in order for him to get all of this. oh..and he was still wearing his wedding ring....it made us want to throw up. we now have visiting rights to see our dog...but my friend, whom we are living with, has to call him, and go pick up my dog and bring her over here. at first his Attorney said HE wanted to keep my dog...our Attorney went balistic and said no way...she said if I have to go to family court and sue for the dog...I will :) so he relented and said, yes it is her dog and belongs with her. oh he was being so passive, it was sickening. but...i have to tell you, i have lost quite a bit of weight and am short...and when we went before the Judge...she looked at me...then over at him...and said....now am I to believe SHE physically abused HIM???? also HIS Attorney, looked down at me and asked...are you HIS wife...when we said yes..he got this look of disbelief on his face.
thank you all for your thoughts, prayers, support and love. you have no idea how very much this all means to us. we love all of you so very much and miss you. forgive us for not visiting your blogs at this time....there is just so much going on.
love to all,
"us"
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
just a quick note to say...we are doing ok. court this coming Friday to put aside the Protection order against me and to negate my payment of any bills incurred by "him" at the house. August 21st will be the Bench Trial.
once the protection order is put aside (hopefully) we can see our Scarlett...
once the
Bench Trial is over...if we are permitted to leave the state, we will get Scarlett and take her to Mother's, until we are ready to move to Texas.
we are fighting the HATE we feel for "him". as each day passes, it becomes harder and harder not to hate. we know hate will make us ill.
Thank you all, our dear friends, for you comments, your prayers and your concern. We love you!
"us"
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
It's over...that is the good news. 
