"Update" LOL Steve!

Was planning to wait until the divorce is final before writing again..but "someone" has let us know he is concerned....thank you very much for caring....so this is where we are at this point.

Saw Doc on Monday, for the first time since all of this nightmare began. We were looking forward to seeing him, as we had missed him very much. The thing is, we were unable to "read" him, as we used to....we are at a loss as to what he believes about us. We told the story, we told the truth, but did he believe us? We have no idea. We understand, with our history of losing time, that there is a remote possibility, one of us could have hurt the asshole. But we have discussed this and NO WAY did we do anything to harm him. No, it was not a "we had to defend ourselves" situation either. We have come to accept that there are those that may never believe, will always have doubts about our guilt or innocence. That's okay, we know we did not hurt him....and that is what allows us to sleep at night....finally! We do hope he is NOT sleeping, that his guilt for destroying our spotless record, for upsetting our family and friends, for causing people to doubt us, will relentlessly bother him the rest of his hopefully unhappy miserable life! Do we wish him harm....no.....we just want his days and nights to be filled with remorse and unhappiness.

Divorce should be final by next week...or so we are told by Attorney. Once we have our maiden name back we can finally proceed with all the necessary changes and documents for our extended trip to England. We are very excited!
We have many other thing to do as well....sell the furniture awarded to us, go home for Thanksgiving to say goodbye to our family, and lots of other last minute details.

So there it is...our update.

Peace and Love to all!

"us"

The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

WHY, WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY??????

Why do I never get a break? What the hell have I done so wrong in my life, that all of this crap is happening to me?

My sentence - 1 year probation (reporting probation), random drug and alcohol testing, oh, and at my own cost, must go back into counseling, oh, and again at my own cost, paid a fine of $700.00 and am not allowed in any bars. WTH? The Judge entered this sentence per the recommendation of the Probation Officer I interviewed with for exactly 30 minutes! Well, I spoke up! I told the Judge I have plans to move out of the Country, before the end of the year. He asked where was I moving to, told him, he said he has no problem with that.
But first I must get a Mental Health Assessment...wtf! I've been in counselling as my own choice for a long time. Then I must show a letter of Sponsorship from the person I will be living with in England, and they will either change my probation to a mail in..or possibly drop it. All of this...for what? I have never harmed anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So the lying creep gets away with everything! I hate him...with such an intense hatred it boggles my mind. He has caused me anguish, and also my family and friends. May he rot in hell!!!!

So folks that's it!

I will write again on the day my divorce is final so I may celebrate the occasion with all of you, who have supported me always. All of you are so awesome!

S

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

ALMOST AT AN END!

Hello everyone! Been long time since writing...so sorry...just so much going on.

Last week, was court for divorce and settlement of property. Husband made huge ass of himself, by saying unkind and untrue things about me in front of his Attorney and mine. I remained calm, when answering any insults he threw my way...that pissed him off! Will have my maiden name restored. Divorce should be final in less than 30 days! YAY!!!!

So furniture was divided. I do walk through house this coming Wednesday, and place sticky notes on my personal items. Have no idea when I can finally box things up and move them to storage...but hope very soon.

Today is my sentencing for Probation. Oh please do not give me probation!!!! I want to get out of this area as soon as I can. My Attorney thinks I will get a fine only...,but it is a crap shoot...so will let you know what happens.

Got to go..nearly time to leave for court.

Oh and Meri.....yes I know NF is just beautiful....but do you really want "stuck" with all of us? LOL!!! You are a sweetie!

Love to all...thank you so much for your support.

"us"

The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

"A New Plan"

Hi friends! we have missed all of you, and think of you every day............. please forgive us not posting...so much going on.

Scarlett now safely with parents....so sad to leave her, but had to. she was happy to be back with yus......will see her next month.

mother became very ill while we visit...back in hospital....with blood clot in lung. she better now and home. very scared...we were....very.

new plan for future....move to England. yep, never been there, always want to go there, have friend there...so why not go? Well would be 6 month Holiday...not move there....need to get away as soon as we know what will happen to us in court. next week on 29th is divorce hearing/trial. hv no idea how anything is going as attorney has not called me. then oct. 5th is probation sentencing. oh please, please do not give us probation!!!!!!!!!!!!! we did not hurt anyone...we want to leave country..........pleasssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

still staying with friends. must move as soon as can. hate intruding on people...thaough they say not,. need owm place.

nothing more.

miss you!

rainbow ~~













"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

"LONG PAST DUE UPDATE"

Hello friends - we apologize for being remiss in updating. So many things are happening we have just not gotten to write. we miss all of you so much! we appreciate your comments, prayers and word of encouragement so much!

we just completed our probation interview...which we found to be hysterical and humiliating. first....why must we have an interview for probation? it is not as if we are "APPLYING" for probation as one would a job or position. it's to be our punishment. we have been named the abuser, fraud gently, of course, but there is no way of changing that now. my friend, who was appointed to pick up our Scarlett from the VICTIM, so that we may see her, was assaulted by the VICTIM! yes...can you even believe he would do something so utterly lol unVICTIM like? My friend arrives to get Scarlett (on Scarlett's 13th birthday) to bring her to me. we had planned to take her down by the river and spend the entire day with her. we bought her a present and was so looking forward to the day. it was not meant to be. when my friend arrived, Scarlett was leashed and ready to go. then the VICTIM pushed a paper in her face....not a legal document, but something he had one of his friends type up, telling her she must sign it. the paper showed the time Scarlett was picked up and that she would be returned to him that evening. My friend, completely fed up with his bullshit, refused to sign it, stating it had not been a condition set by the judge. he told her she could not take Scarlett unless she signed it. She ignored him, bent down to pick up Scarlett and the VICTIM pushed her!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then had the absolute nerve to yell out to the neighborhood......Did everyone see her push me? Well, my friend arrived, holding an empty leash, crying, shaking and so upset. we drove to the police station and she filed an incident report...just so it is on file and because the VICTIM is a complete ASS! he told her the papers he was having her sign were for the judge......so he could show the judge that I do not care about Scarlett because I have not had her picked up often. what he has apparently forgotten is....Scarlett is MY dog...brought into the sham of a marriage....and that he had a PPO against me, not allowing me to come within 150 feet of him. the judge would have laughed in his stupid face. so, my Sister and her husband are currently in town. On Monday, my Sister and her husband will pick up Scarlett...bring her to me and I will take her to live with my parents until this freakin divorce is over.

Next court hearing is for the divorce on September 29th. Upon the request of HIS Attorney (because apparently he is sick of dealing with the ass) my Attorney and I submitted a Divorce Proposal...and believe me...I asked for everything!!!! we are done being nice! we will post and let you know of the outcome.

we must sleep how...we love you....
"us"

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

These COULD be Funny...

the followinf are sime things going on inside our head, as different remarks where being made in court this past friday:

attirney: k you have multiple personalities?
us: ummm yes
attorney: but not like sybil
us: no, mire peeps than sybil and why not LIKE sybil
Attorney; well it's not like you hv different personalitirs
us: yes, different parts in side,,,different personalities, yes
Attorney: Oh...with strqANGE Look on her face
us: thinking...oh niw we r weird,,,and yiu dn;t like us
us: thinking,.,,,r you jewish? shuld we look at you strangely?
Attorney: well you dont do the things that sybil did...right\
us; we lose tijme, end ip places we not know how we getr there
Attorney: Oh,,,,,,,
us: it is called DID...and is complex coping nechanism for eaRLY severe child abuse,,,when chikd is yiung,]
Attorney; I see
us: oh yeah sure you see...no u don't see
us feel lost, no hope, weird, scarde.....and that all now


"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

Well The News Is Not Good!

It's over...that is the good news.

We arrived to find a new Prosecuting Attorney. One unknown by my Attorney and one not familiar with my case. "He" was there with his female friend, someone he has known a long time. They sat in the front row, sneaking looks at me and laughing.

The court gave him 2 opportunities to drop the charges and he refused. So on the advice of my Attorney, I pled "no contest". We could have gone ahead and had the bench trial, but that is a crap shoot with an uncertain outcome. The way everything has been going his way, I made the decision to take the plea, knowing the outcome would be probation and a fine. I meet with the Probation Officer the first week in September for an Interview. Then the first week in October, I will go back to court and be sentenced, in essence be told how long my probation will last, what my fine will be and oh yeah....I have to attend Anger Management Classes, punishment for an act I did NOT committ. Well at least I don't have to wear an orange vest and pick up garbage on the streets.

I am sad and depressed. My Attorney is livid! She told me to roll up my sleeves, because we are going to have the ugliest divorce TRIAL...yes I said trial...that has yet to be seen. She called his Attorney yesterday and told him if her client (me) has to take a plea, he better be ready for an ugly divorce. So she is going after everything she can get. I am finished being nice. I am totally with her on this. If I just had the energy to get angry, it would help. I just feel helpless, depressed and sad. When I saw him in court today, I noticed he too has lost weight, he looks tired and worn out. When I said this to my friend and my Attorney, they were amazed that I could feel any empathy for him. I don't love him, I am not in love with him...but he is still a human being, a person. Yes, he has hurt me, and continues to hurt me and perhaps I sound ridiculous for feeling some sorrow for him..but hate will not change anything. I need some anger to get me going. But I don't even have that. Believe me, my family has enough and then some. My Brother wants to come out here and....well I don't exactly know what he wants to do..but something that would most likely put him in jail.

So there ya have it.

Love to all,
Sueann and "us"

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".