YES, I AM ALIVE AND WELL!!!

Hi Everyone!

This is a picture of the shopping district in Brighton, England.

I arrived in England on December 18th. It is beautiful here! I live a mere 3 minute walk from the SEA (English Channel) and am enjoying the serenity it offers me. I walk every day, along the promenade by the Sea, joined by many local residents, who embrace their good fortune to live so near to such beauty.

I am in good health, both physically and emotionally. Everyone is still with me...and no one has acted "out" since arriving. I don't mean to imply we are not "out" because that would be lying....we are in and out. Susannah (me) is out most of the time, as she is handling this move to a new Country so very well. We are happy! Our Muse seems to have stayed in America, as our ability to write has left us, for the time being. Perhaps, the adjustment period will be over soon and "SHE" will return....we are hopeful, as our writing is paramount to us.

The divorce was final on December 8th, which would have been our 3rd Wedding Anniversary...which caused us much laughter...come on....it is funny. I just received word, that he is losing the house, which he so desperately wanted to keep. Thanks to my Attorney, I was completely relieved of any debt that may be associated with a future foreclosure. Right before my departure for England, I had to go to the house to remove all that was appointed to me in the divorce decree. He came out to tell me he loved me and wanted me to come back to him. I did not reply, but oh I wanted to!!!! I received a letter in the mail from the Judge who presided over my Criminal Charge, and am delighted to tell you, those charges are no longer on my record and the probation has been set aside as well. KARMA!!!!!! Yes, I endured some horrific trials and paid lots of money, convicted of a crime I did not commit, but KARMA has found retribution for me and I am at peace.

My only sadness is missing my family and my beloved dog, Scarlett. She is now 13 and is living, happily with my parents. I talked to her on the phone yesterday, and my Mum said she was licking the phone all the while I was talking to her. I will be going home in late Spring and can not wait to see her.

To Doc, whom I hope still, now and then checks to see if I have posted. Thank you, with all my heart, in pronouncing me sane (lol) which in turn allowed me to go through with my plan to move here to England. I have a postcard for you and will send it soon....promise! I miss you, as my friend, and hope to once again meet with you, as such. I hope that you are taking good care of yourself and that you have found your new puppy. I think of you often, of how much you helped me know all of "US". More importantly, the help you provided in guiding me in the acceptance, of who we are.

Steve, and all my friends, who once followed my Blog...I miss you and think of you often, as well. I hope that all of you are finding your peace and happiness. I can not promise to write here every day, but will keep you updated as to the turn our lives have taken. We love you and miss you.

US

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

"Update" LOL Steve!

Was planning to wait until the divorce is final before writing again..but "someone" has let us know he is concerned....thank you very much for caring....so this is where we are at this point.

Saw Doc on Monday, for the first time since all of this nightmare began. We were looking forward to seeing him, as we had missed him very much. The thing is, we were unable to "read" him, as we used to....we are at a loss as to what he believes about us. We told the story, we told the truth, but did he believe us? We have no idea. We understand, with our history of losing time, that there is a remote possibility, one of us could have hurt the asshole. But we have discussed this and NO WAY did we do anything to harm him. No, it was not a "we had to defend ourselves" situation either. We have come to accept that there are those that may never believe, will always have doubts about our guilt or innocence. That's okay, we know we did not hurt him....and that is what allows us to sleep at night....finally! We do hope he is NOT sleeping, that his guilt for destroying our spotless record, for upsetting our family and friends, for causing people to doubt us, will relentlessly bother him the rest of his hopefully unhappy miserable life! Do we wish him harm....no.....we just want his days and nights to be filled with remorse and unhappiness.

Divorce should be final by next week...or so we are told by Attorney. Once we have our maiden name back we can finally proceed with all the necessary changes and documents for our extended trip to England. We are very excited!
We have many other thing to do as well....sell the furniture awarded to us, go home for Thanksgiving to say goodbye to our family, and lots of other last minute details.

So there it is...our update.

Peace and Love to all!

"us"

The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

WHY, WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY??????

Why do I never get a break? What the hell have I done so wrong in my life, that all of this crap is happening to me?

My sentence - 1 year probation (reporting probation), random drug and alcohol testing, oh, and at my own cost, must go back into counseling, oh, and again at my own cost, paid a fine of $700.00 and am not allowed in any bars. WTH? The Judge entered this sentence per the recommendation of the Probation Officer I interviewed with for exactly 30 minutes! Well, I spoke up! I told the Judge I have plans to move out of the Country, before the end of the year. He asked where was I moving to, told him, he said he has no problem with that.
But first I must get a Mental Health Assessment...wtf! I've been in counselling as my own choice for a long time. Then I must show a letter of Sponsorship from the person I will be living with in England, and they will either change my probation to a mail in..or possibly drop it. All of this...for what? I have never harmed anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So the lying creep gets away with everything! I hate him...with such an intense hatred it boggles my mind. He has caused me anguish, and also my family and friends. May he rot in hell!!!!

So folks that's it!

I will write again on the day my divorce is final so I may celebrate the occasion with all of you, who have supported me always. All of you are so awesome!

S

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

ALMOST AT AN END!

Hello everyone! Been long time since writing...so sorry...just so much going on.

Last week, was court for divorce and settlement of property. Husband made huge ass of himself, by saying unkind and untrue things about me in front of his Attorney and mine. I remained calm, when answering any insults he threw my way...that pissed him off! Will have my maiden name restored. Divorce should be final in less than 30 days! YAY!!!!

So furniture was divided. I do walk through house this coming Wednesday, and place sticky notes on my personal items. Have no idea when I can finally box things up and move them to storage...but hope very soon.

Today is my sentencing for Probation. Oh please do not give me probation!!!! I want to get out of this area as soon as I can. My Attorney thinks I will get a fine only...,but it is a crap shoot...so will let you know what happens.

Got to go..nearly time to leave for court.

Oh and Meri.....yes I know NF is just beautiful....but do you really want "stuck" with all of us? LOL!!! You are a sweetie!

Love to all...thank you so much for your support.

"us"

The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

"A New Plan"

Hi friends! we have missed all of you, and think of you every day............. please forgive us not posting...so much going on.

Scarlett now safely with parents....so sad to leave her, but had to. she was happy to be back with yus......will see her next month.

mother became very ill while we visit...back in hospital....with blood clot in lung. she better now and home. very scared...we were....very.

new plan for future....move to England. yep, never been there, always want to go there, have friend there...so why not go? Well would be 6 month Holiday...not move there....need to get away as soon as we know what will happen to us in court. next week on 29th is divorce hearing/trial. hv no idea how anything is going as attorney has not called me. then oct. 5th is probation sentencing. oh please, please do not give us probation!!!!!!!!!!!!! we did not hurt anyone...we want to leave country..........pleasssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

still staying with friends. must move as soon as can. hate intruding on people...thaough they say not,. need owm place.

nothing more.

miss you!

rainbow ~~













"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

"LONG PAST DUE UPDATE"

Hello friends - we apologize for being remiss in updating. So many things are happening we have just not gotten to write. we miss all of you so much! we appreciate your comments, prayers and word of encouragement so much!

we just completed our probation interview...which we found to be hysterical and humiliating. first....why must we have an interview for probation? it is not as if we are "APPLYING" for probation as one would a job or position. it's to be our punishment. we have been named the abuser, fraud gently, of course, but there is no way of changing that now. my friend, who was appointed to pick up our Scarlett from the VICTIM, so that we may see her, was assaulted by the VICTIM! yes...can you even believe he would do something so utterly lol unVICTIM like? My friend arrives to get Scarlett (on Scarlett's 13th birthday) to bring her to me. we had planned to take her down by the river and spend the entire day with her. we bought her a present and was so looking forward to the day. it was not meant to be. when my friend arrived, Scarlett was leashed and ready to go. then the VICTIM pushed a paper in her face....not a legal document, but something he had one of his friends type up, telling her she must sign it. the paper showed the time Scarlett was picked up and that she would be returned to him that evening. My friend, completely fed up with his bullshit, refused to sign it, stating it had not been a condition set by the judge. he told her she could not take Scarlett unless she signed it. She ignored him, bent down to pick up Scarlett and the VICTIM pushed her!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then had the absolute nerve to yell out to the neighborhood......Did everyone see her push me? Well, my friend arrived, holding an empty leash, crying, shaking and so upset. we drove to the police station and she filed an incident report...just so it is on file and because the VICTIM is a complete ASS! he told her the papers he was having her sign were for the judge......so he could show the judge that I do not care about Scarlett because I have not had her picked up often. what he has apparently forgotten is....Scarlett is MY dog...brought into the sham of a marriage....and that he had a PPO against me, not allowing me to come within 150 feet of him. the judge would have laughed in his stupid face. so, my Sister and her husband are currently in town. On Monday, my Sister and her husband will pick up Scarlett...bring her to me and I will take her to live with my parents until this freakin divorce is over.

Next court hearing is for the divorce on September 29th. Upon the request of HIS Attorney (because apparently he is sick of dealing with the ass) my Attorney and I submitted a Divorce Proposal...and believe me...I asked for everything!!!! we are done being nice! we will post and let you know of the outcome.

we must sleep how...we love you....
"us"

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".

These COULD be Funny...

the followinf are sime things going on inside our head, as different remarks where being made in court this past friday:

attirney: k you have multiple personalities?
us: ummm yes
attorney: but not like sybil
us: no, mire peeps than sybil and why not LIKE sybil
Attorney; well it's not like you hv different personalitirs
us: yes, different parts in side,,,different personalities, yes
Attorney: Oh...with strqANGE Look on her face
us: thinking...oh niw we r weird,,,and yiu dn;t like us
us: thinking,.,,,r you jewish? shuld we look at you strangely?
Attorney: well you dont do the things that sybil did...right\
us; we lose tijme, end ip places we not know how we getr there
Attorney: Oh,,,,,,,
us: it is called DID...and is complex coping nechanism for eaRLY severe child abuse,,,when chikd is yiung,]
Attorney; I see
us: oh yeah sure you see...no u don't see
us feel lost, no hope, weird, scarde.....and that all now


"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".