"Intense Day"

<---------- Rainbow spoke at "T" today....while MElinda - grades 1-6 drew pictures, with colored pencils and a sketch pad..oh and box of 64 crayons.....gifts from Doc, to help us get better. Doc, so nice man...friend to "us". lots of crying....whole bunch....but kept drawing, drawing.
then got sick and bad pain in tummy.....hurt really bad.......feeling scared too......talked about brother who die and about sister won't like us.....have bad head hurt now.....draw number 8 for doc....not good....very tired.....said would like to be in V. L.'s arms....she so nice to us......no one to hold us.....feel lost

"Hold Us"

No one to hold us
no one to care

Smack us and beat us
and pull out our hair

Hurting and hurting
and no one to tell

Sadness and sorrow
we just want to yell

See us, believe us
don't turn away

This can not be our life
no, nothing okay

Why did you born us
if hate us so much

Not a kind word
and nary a touch

The monster is coming
to kill us we think

Cut off our heads
and drop in the sink

Shut up you bitches
we hear them say

Run off to the chambers
must get away

We hold each other
some comfort we find

Our memories we bury
and leave them behind

Broken and splintered
we try to sleep

Silence is golden
secrets we keep

rainbow~

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".