Well I had no visitors, or I should say comments, about the post yesterday....can't say as we blame you. What a rant...huh? Well, today was no better. So if you are reading this...you may want to step out side the Haunted House, and come back another day
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A new visitor did come here last night and left a comment. We know that she meant well, and we thank her! But we have been through many Therapy courses of Cognitive Thinking and we know the list thingy....draw a line down the middle of the paper...write your negative thought...then on the other side of the line turn that negative into a positive...oh we have done all of that already. We are way beyond, we are done with that...it did not work...because there are too many of us and we all have different opinions and thoughts about everything! Yes, we also know we are not the only ones in the world suffering....and if we sounded self absorbed...it's because at this stage in our life, we are! We are so damn tired of always coming up empty in life. We have empathy for others...we are not without compassion...but right now...we are so angry! It's as if everything that has happened in our life, has all come together into a gigantic ball of ANGER!!! We just want it to stop!!!! We are to the point that if one more thing is put on us we will burst!!! Fly into gazillions of pieces!! We want to scream, until we can scream no more. Though we feel like crying...we are wayyyy to angry to cry! We are so mentally crippled, we don't even know that we can take care of ourselves!!! We have no one....and we mean no one....that can relate to even the mere idea of being Multiples! We don't even understand ourselves at times. So tired of the racing thoughts, the whispers, the acting out, the inappropriate times when laugh, or cry, or become a child, then an adult, it's too much!!!! We are a walking, talking FREAK show!!! WE CAN NOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Refuse to sign any names.....
"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body and although we repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated. our perceptions confused and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still whole in spirit, will accept no compromises or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth".
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Dear "refuse to sign any names", that's like ME! Alcoholic ANONYMOUS. Right? However, I can use my first name, Steve. I'm guessing yours is "Refuse"? -grin!
Hope you-all can stand just a slight bit of frivolity from "US" today. (Remember, that's "Uncle Steve!")
If there was a way I could help, ya KNOW I would. And I will not mention your names either, even though I DO think I know a few of you now. And it is to ALL of you, I send Peace, and LOVE, from
US
Dear all of you,
I have placed "you all" in a special prayer place of my own making. I wish to shelter you with my prayers.
I hear you - you are done with lists, done with this, done with that, in a totally powerless place - without hope....full of anger.
Please allow me to do a little hoping and praying for you. Please allow me to call on my God to help. Surely you have nothing to lose by saying "yes" to the prayers I offer.
I love you,
Prayer Girl
Hello you all,
I am sorry to hear your day did not go well at all.
It is a pity you did not receive my comment yesterday. I forgot what I wrote...
For today: safe hugs and just sitting by your side.
hello all~ i haven't been on the computer much lately and so i have gotten behind on your blogs. i'm sorry about that. definitely i always comment when i do get the chance to read, so don't worry that i would ever read and not comment.
i've read a few posts after this one too so i saw that you are all feeling better and started to get some sleep. and that's wonderful! and congratulations on your award! you deserve it :)
but i'm sorry you're seeing the figure again to your left. so scary! i hope that gets resolved or understood soon so it doesn't keep scaring you.
and i'm glad therapy is going well too. and it seems like a very good practice to express what each of the alters are feeling or needing at a time, like in tuesday's post. that way everyone gets a voice who wants to express themselves.
but about this particular post, i'm sorry that someone wrote a comment that was upsetting and angering. sometimes i think people want to "help" but don't realize how UNHELPFUL their comments are. sometimes just listening and offering safe hugs is best. but good for you for expressing your anger! i think that's very healthy and empowered~ :)
but i'm sorry no one commented on the sad post you wrote. that hurts my feelings when that happens too. i try to remember, if it's a weekend especially, that if i don't get comments, people are probably just out enjoying themselves and it's nothing about me. easier said that believed, i know!
but that's terrible about the man losing his job. :( i'm so sorry. i know how important your privacy is to you. and i don't think that's selfish at all to be upset about that! i hope he gets another job soon!
but back to the sad post you wrote the other day, i am so sorry you were going through those sad and angry feelings. i'm so glad you're feeling better now. sometimes for me, in the worst moments, it helps me to think of it as a terrible emotional thunderstorm, threatening to tear me down, but if i just can get through it, those days go by and we do end up feeling better. we make our way out of self-doubt and depression. you are doing so much hard work. you deserve to feel better. i know it's hard. and sometimes all we can do is hang on. and the sun will rise again, and the clouds will pass and you will feel better. and i don't believe in god, so i don't have that to trust in either. so i can relate to you not wanting to be told that as your answer.
as for those people out in the world that look so happy - they're lying ;) no but seriously, i often feel bad comparing myself to others who i'm sure have it way better than me. but it really helps me to think that we all have problems, some people do hide it better than others. but that helps me feel less alone to remember i'm not the only one who's sad. you are not alone.
i hope you're having a nice day today~
((safe hugs))
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